For quite a while I have realized that there are a lot of things that need changed in this world. Me most of all, quite a bit with how others treat me. But more so with how I treat my self.  I have been saying for years that I would do something about it but I lose the desire pretty quick. Out of not only fear of failure, but also out of shear laziness. Which I will be honest is what the reason was quite a bit of the time. But I am SICK and tired of just letting my self get away with not changing especially when I need to. I just wish I could find an easier way to do so, one that would work with my school schedule, my work schedule, and my I am a teenager schedule as well as I am my own person and I need some time to my self schedule. I have for 18 years, 5 months, 24 days been what others wanted me to be in some form or another, but yesterday April 1st 2012 I stole a small part of my self back. In the form of a tattoo, I got the word 'Beautiful' tattooed on my right foot in calligraphy. 'Beautiful' is my very first tattoo, one that I hope I will never regret getting. The reason that I got that instead of some other word or image is because of two reasons. The first (shallow though it is) I need the reminder that I am beautiful, all my life I have been told that I am ugly or I don't measure up in some way or another. So I got this to remind me that despite what they say I AM beautiful. The second reason I got it is that despite the fact that the world has A LOT of ugly horrible things. And be honest there really is a lot of pain and suffering in this place we call Earth. I want to remember that here is still beauty and I need to remember that not the bad horrible things in this world. (my reason is mostly the last one but the first is still important) That very same day I got my right nostril pierced. It hurt a lot worse than my tattoo did even though the tattoo was about 35-45 minutes longer process. It is hopefully not the last change I am going to be making over this weeks period which just happens to be my Spring Break. I am hoping to take my normally dark brown hair which naturally has a lot of red as well as unnaturally has even more red added and change it to a almost platinum blonde or maybe a little less blond. Whether that will happen this week or not is up in the air but I can hope can't i? Well anyways I am done writing this for now, I have to go to work in a few minutes and still have to get ready (slacker that I am)